>>35620585i can't stop being a chaser.
(for clarity, i'm referring to mtfs. Ftms are men but I don't view them better or worse than cis men).
I don't hate cis girls or anything. They're fine, but I will literally always prefer mtf to cisf if everything is equal. Even if it's not, being trans makes up a lot of "bonus points".
I don't have any views like "its the best of both worlds" or that mtfs are less women than cis women, but I do seemingly view them differently somehow given they're overwhelmingly who i'm interested in, date, have sex with, etc. I'm not saying i'd never have interest in cis women, but if the ratio of cis to trans women was equal, i'd probably only be interested in cis women 1/10 to 1/5 of the time for actual sex/dating stuff. I'm usually also more focused on making my partner happy with mtfs (it's not that it isn't in other cases, it's just MORE of a priority).
I do like penises, but I generally prefer my partner to do whatever makes them happiest. I wouldn't want them to keep their dick if they hated it. If they were neutral or only cared what I wanted, I'd probably prefer them keep it unless hrt has made it impotent, in which case i'd probably recommend bottom surgery. Even then, it has an appeal.
I feel guilt about this, since I know being a chaser is bad and most trans girls hate their dick. I really try to push it back because I don't want to hurt them, but I can't help it.
If i'm around trans girls and stuff, I hit on them a lot more, am more brazen and whatnot. More so if they're generally "lewd". It can make it much harder to hold back those kinds of thoughts or wants. In my ideal life, assuming I had billionaire money, my ideal partner would probably just be a stay at home mtf gf who I get cute clothes and making her happy and her life better. Especially if its someone who spends all day doing lewd stuff or playing games or watching tv or being happy. I'd wanna show them off on dates and stuff so people can see her, too.
